I'm bringing this blog back to life, what ya know. Why you may ask, but you're so boring, nothing really happens in your life that anyone wants to hear about, much less read about. Well, the answer to that is, for my own benefit. And if there is a single person out there that cares enough about me, they will be interested, that's why. ;) And because I've discovered at times, little moments I have where my identity is revealed to me. The identity of ME, rather than the Mom I am 24 hrs of every day. I love that role, I revel in it, I would never change it for anything the world could offer me. But sometimes, when I'm all alone with my thoughts , I get flashbacks of what it felt like to know Kristina and to be be someone besides always having thoughts for everyone else in my life. I like to think back like that sometimes, because it gives my ever so overfilled brain with a little reprieve for a moment. I can breathe a new breath for a moment and feel a little lifted, if that makes any sense. To any moms reading, I'm sure you can understand completely. I think in order to truly spend any real amount of time on myself, I'd have to relearn that, and now with children, my identity has forever changed and I won't get that opportunity, which is fine by me. So, even if I try, I find it impossible to stay on the task of thinking about me in regards to anything. I'm sure I'll do a lot of talking about my kids, because they are the only things that truly matter. Not everything will be important. I just like to have a place to type out my thoughts and ramble as I please. I don't really have anyone, I feel like that cares to hear all the unimportant details of me. So, I'll talk to the computer who won't respond (as I'm quite used to), but it helps nonetheless.
Now, on with it.
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