Updating

for the sake of updating. I don't think anyone cares and in fact, I don't know that anyone even reads this which is the reason I stopped blogging on it 2 years ago. I guess I accomplish the same thing when I talk to myself around the house huh? Don't worry, I'll answer that, "yes, pretty much".

"How am I doing lately?" Me? Oh, I'm fine, wait I'm not fine. I'm tired, I'm angry.. well I was angry today (T mobile is a JOKE)and being that frustrated and angry, made me shake with anger and frustration, then crash from exhaustion. They ruined my day yup, but in the end it worked out.. as best it can, still not perfect. (I hate T mobile)...

I tend to ramble
But I'm uhh.. fine, yes."

We're broke, times are stressful. Emma is back in school so we are back to a schedule.. and even on days we aren't, we still have to be. Afternoons go by fast and evenings are very long. I'm tired. I want to have money again. I want to not worry about money. I want to just be happy and enjoy my children and life, and not have the worry of money ruining my life. It feels like and I'm almost convinced we have it worse than anyone else I know, or know of. I would like a break from all the crap that is constantly bombarding our life. I am sick and tired of it, and I want a break. WE deserve a break. We are not selfish people. We do not seek riches. We do not seek luxury. All we want is to pay our bills, keep food in the house, keep our house in one piece and our animals fed. Why is that so much to ask. We don't go spending large amounts of money. Buying things we don't NEED. But this is no way to live, it's just not.

In an attempt to lift my mood and try to find ways to save us money, I have started to cook and bake. I've started baking bread so we can stop buying it. I've been making the kids cookies (I have bred small cookie monsters if you didn't know), started to use my slow cooker for recipes for dinners, and freeze the excess. I am starting slow, but hope to just pick up experience and speed. Everyone here loves the bread, they love the cookies.. the dinners are questionable but that is because A. they contain veggies or B. they contain beans.. 3 out of the 5 people here eating solid foods (okay REAL solid foods) having an issue with that. But, they will eventually suck it up because buying prepared food is just not affordable for us anymore. Not with a few kids that are just eating more as they all get bigger. Heck even this sizeable (so he was referred to at birth) 7 month old of mine is eating through the baby food at an impressive speed. I also plan to start making baby food as soon as I can get a handle on all this other preparing of food.

It's been very good for me mentally though and I feel a bit less stressed and happier doing these things. I'm really getting into it! I did it a lot when I was just a teen so it's been quite a few years. I always enjoyed it but lost the time for it. I'm now finding the time and it's been quite rewarding. I may post some recipes here I find yummy when I get around to doing that. We'll have to see.

Enough of this though, no one is reading remember? "oh yeah, that's right, I remember."