they all won't stop getting older

haven't figured out what to do about this problem, but haven't given up either.

we took our button out for her special birthday dinner on friday night. she had a good time being the star of the show, and why shouldn't she.

she managed to get her mom and dad to buy 4 wubzy stuffies, because she could not part with 3. she's got us wrapped i tell you.. or maybe just daddy. =) but who cares, it was her special night and i was not about to make my baby cry!

we will be celebrating her birthday this sunday, eventhough her actual birthday falls on friday. we always do the weekened celebration when daddy is off of work, of course. it should be a fun, simple, and special birthday for our baby girl.

You've lived for 3 whole years!

Miss Rachel. I love you and wish you the very best of a fourth year ahead. I hope I can meet you sometime soon! I hope everyone poured all over you and made it the very special day that it is. Easter can't hold a candle to you. ;) Happy Birthday beauty.

-xxxooo

if you were to

accidentally knock over your beverage (in my case a beer), all over your keyboard and subsequently.. your carpet. which would you run to soak up first?

answer:
carpet. (at least in my case)

not sure what that says about me. but i think it's good. =) or maybe nuts? which would also fall in line with me, but nevertheless good.. at least in my book.

suppose i should work on that clumsy thing.

My Girls.

How I love them so.

My most favorite picture (taken today via cell phone) of them to date.

Where does the time go.

How do I keep them small

and innocent.

How have a I missed so much?

To everyone else this may be just another picture.

To me it yells and screams volumes in my face.

Life has gotten in the way.

Life has happened while I was busy with life.

It makes my angry!

I want to divorce my OCD, my anxiety, my depression, my OCD about myself and my OCD!

It's hard being me.. but I bet it's harder being them seeing me.

I just want a break... from it all.

and I don't want a picture taken in a hectic time yet so beautifully, to make me see what I've got that I can't see every other day.

This is my prayer.

Amen

First Supper =)

we had sooo much fun sitting together, laughing together.. at each other lol. i think we're all giddy that we can look around at all our faces and see and hear things we never do, or have time to see and hear! rye bear squealed and kicked his legs being so happy to look at us while eating. he thought it was the best thing ever. we talked. this is long overdue for any family, let alone a family with 4 kids who have never sat down at a table together!

it's times like this, i love and appreciate our little house, complete with the children that run amok in it. the lack of space is evident but there is never a lack of love, of laughter, and life running through it. happy momma. =)

playing under the table and dreaming =)

so, we finally got a table i'd been wanting for some time, Craigslist came thru ;) put it up last night, and the kiddies were so excited to see it this morning, eat their breakfast and their lunch.. to look through magazines at, or go exploring underneath. ;) i sat with them all at lunch and it was alot of fun. we laughed alot and el ate so much better than she ever does. i'm looking very forward to dinner as a family for the first time. =)